One of the things I liked about the Shadow priest, and stuck with the class through the days of dismal dps, was I liked being utility, the self-sufficiency, replenishment, party healing, If I ever cared about being caster top dps I would have rolled a Mage or Warlock years ago.
14 min queues for DPS for the Cata heroic aren’t too bad, so I queued and got Grim Batol. I was just settling into Boss DPS mode on the first boss, after killing the first malignant trogg, (because no one else even tried) I glance up at the parties health bars, mindful of any Blitz warnings flashing on screen, and the healer’s life bar disappears, and then a split second later tank is at 10% health and is also RIP. Hunter dps gets smashed by the boss, and me and the DK manage to kite him around a little bit but still only get him to about 50%.
Then I get told as we are running back.
“Priest – you should have off healed”
Not ” Bad healer for standing in crap” Or “bad tank for tanking him where you did” ( I think on top of the healer – all their damage taken was ground siege)
It was “Priest – you should have off healed”
I had to defend myself. ” You were at 10% health and standing in ground siege” and “You shouldn’t need a offhealer if the Healer doesn’t get one shot”
If he had, had more than 10% health I would have given it a shot, but healer down, Tank so low with a health bar that got sucked into oblivion before even me, a trigger happy - leave shadow form priest can react. I resent being told I should have off-healed.
I like being useful, filling gaps. I will drop Shadow form and heal in Pve and Pvp. I try to be helpful. If I don’t think the healer is keeping my tank up in a dungeon well enough I will throw shields up on them, and yes my dps suffers, but it doesn’t matter because I’d rather not wipe. I watch the health bar of the tank, and the healer. I notice when a dps is down, when someone doesn’t get rezed ec. I hymn when someone kills both hatchers and the healer worries about the extra damage. I mass dispel on the Bear boss so the healer doesnt have to single target dispel 5 people.
I try and help damn it , often at a loss of dps to me, sure it might be one global cool down here and there, but I have known Dps and Tanks that don’t run with raid frames because they don’t need to know what everyone’s health and life status is. It’s not their job.
I didn’t complain at the healer failure. I was running back with everyone else, willing to give this bad start of a pug another chance. But I’m supposed to put band aids on their failures as well and I’m the baddie.
But there also lies this apathy problem I have developed. We killed the 1st boss the 2nd time. Healer only got hit with Blitz once, and I killed two Malignant troggs, it was all good, and as we are making our way to the next boss I had several seconds to think about this whole benefit of being an adult and making my own choices. If I was at a party I didn’t want to be at, I can leave, and so yeah, they showed me how the rest of the run was likely to be like, and I really didn’t want that kind of annoyance, so I left.
Is that giving up to easily. Maybe, but I keep forgetting that this game is supposed to be fun. I shouldn’t have to endure bull crap, and there is different types of crap. I was more ok with the healer failing ( learning. as I would like to positively spin it) then I was about this strange attitude that I was somehow required to band aid the problem.